Congratulations, Kaleb!

Dear Kaleb,

Congratulations on earning your yellow belt! I was so proud of you during your test. You showed Master Carla high-block, low-block, middle-block, and side-kick. You also showed her how to walk onto and off of the mat, how to bow and show respect to the flag, and you counted to 10 in Korean all by yourself! You are my little kung-fu master! I love you!

Kisses,

Mommy

Perception

Have you ever thought you were perceived by someone in a certain way, only to find out that you may be totally wrong? Well, that is what is dawning on me this morning and I am trying not to read too much into it. But...it's hard not to feel a little bit down when you realize that someone may not value you as much as you thought.


*****I am adding this about 4 hours after my original post. I just realized that it is that time of the month when I crave chocolate.....yes, PMS. I also noticed that my posts during this time always seem to be a bit emotional. YIKES is all I can say!

For Husbands, Take 3

Dear Loving Husbands of the World,



This is a laundry hamper. It is where you can put clothes that need to be washed.

This is not a laundry hamper. Putting your clothes on this does not signify anything.

This is also not a laundry hamper. Again - leaving clothes here does not signify anything.

I hope I have helped to clear up any confusion you may have had.

Good night.

Cut Me Down to Size

So Kaleb drags me into the office and points at the wall and says, "what doze mommy?"

I pick him up and say, "that is my college diploma, and that is my master's degree, and that one there is my teaching credential. It means that I am a teacher."

He looks at me and says, "no you not a teacher, you just my mommy."

Yes, yes I am.

Difference between love for husband vs. son, Take 1

When my son calls me over to look at what he put in the potty, it's cute.

Not so cute when my husband does.

Wow

I'm obviously in need of Hostess chocolate cupcakes.

'nuff said

I Don't Heart Bl.ue Cro.ss

Just a quick vent so I can try to move on with my day.

Last June we did a frozen embryo transfer (FET). We had 3 embryos that were frozen back in 2005 when Kaleb was conceived. Part of the process in getting the uterus ready to accept the embryos involves taking multiple medications. They can be pricey. I was under the impression that they were going to be covered by our health insurance.

Obviously, I am not pregnant. The FET was unsuccessful. I honestly think I should have canceled it. My cat, Rusty, died the day before the transfer.

I really tried to get all my crying done that day so I could try to have happy "baby" thoughts for the mandatory 3 days of bed rest following the transfer. But....I spent a lot of that time crying for my sweet Rusty. It is probably my fault that those little embryos didn't survive. I didn't make them feel welcome, I guess. I'm sorry if that sounds silly, but a lot of effort went into creating them in the first place and even though part of me is relieved not to have another baby in the house, I really did want them to make it.

Anyway....Bl.ue Cro.ss has decided not to cover the meds (even though we had prior authorization) and we can't afford to pay the bill from the pharmacy. It's almost $2,000. Don't they know there's a recession? I have been dealing with the pharmacy and the insurance company and neither one seems interested in helping me resolve the issue. I am just sooooooo frustrated! I want to smash something to get rid of my anger.

Plus...a part of me feels like to pay this money is the same as throwing it away since the FET didn't even work. I know I am paying for medications received, but that's just what goes through my head.

OK, my rant is done. I'm going to shower off these tears that are running down my face and take my little angel and furry angels on a walk.